The End Of The World On The 19th

21.12.12 that is supposedly the date when all these shit come to an end. Something about the Mayans and their predictions cause they were somehow convinced that when their calender or something came to an end, that's when the world will cease to exist as well. I'm not sure if i've gotten the facts right, but i'm pretty sure it's revolving around that perimeter. Anyways, I have decided to give a hopefully quick update to explain why the end of the world for me was on the 19th this month. The result for my public exam have been revealed, and i'm less than joyful about it. Way, way, way less. It's not entirely because i'm disappointed about how i performed, but rather because i've become this big disappointment to my family, especially my grandma, who according to reliable sources (my mom), had high hopes and expectations for me. So, i turned out to be just another balloon, cause y'know how my family put their efforts and blablafish into trying to make me a better person so i picture that as them blowing air into a balloon, and i'm that balloon. The more they blow, the bigger i get, and then just when they thought i've become a very large balloon, something they can be proud of, i burst into nothingness. So much for their efforts. You feel me?

Yeah i've noticed that i suck with metaphors but that never stopped me from using it. Get it now? I'm just a disappointment to them. They might not show or say anything, but it's not like i need them to to understand y'know. It's written all over their faces, 'DISAPPOINTMENT' but oh who the hell could blame them. Wanna blame someone? Blame me. Blame the ungrateful sloth of a daughter who didn't try her best despite everything that her family had to go through in order for her to have a shot at success. BAHHH.

See, even though the world will most probably end on the 21st, which is like this coming..Friday (tomorrow), MY WORLD ended two days ago from that day. So, if God decides to let the human race face the wrath of mother nature's revenge, all i can say is 'come at me, brotha'. So what if the world ends? Mine did. Bigggg deal. All i need to do is to get reborn again, which is exactly what i'm hoping for. Anyhoo, what i'm trying to put into logical words is that, if the world really comes to an end, life will find a way (quote from the dino movie Jurassic Park). Plus, even if it doesn't, it's not like you'd be here to see all that happen, no, you'll be long dead and gone because in order for a new world to resurface, the old one will have to get the hell out. Landlord probably doesn't like us very much huh. Yeah okay, so this is pretty much it for today. If the world does end, i have three words for every living soul on the planet.

John.

Fucking.

Meyer.

Friends With Benefit anybody? No? You guys suck.

Peace.

Freakin' Mistakes

  Never before have i realized how much mistakes i've been making lately, grammatically speaking. It kills me to say that my English standard has dropped a lot, and who do i have to thank for that? Not my English teacher at school, of course. No, she's just...awesome and totally teacher-of-the-year material. Yeah, totally. So, if you happen to spot any grammar or vocab errors in any of my updates, point them out if you like because reading my blog has been a total sore-eye for me. Everywhere my pupils go, they're always there, the errors. Ugh just get away from me.

  Hmm, so PMR's over. Yep, should've posted something about it like a month ago, but this holiday's pretty packed for me. So many k-dramas, so little time. Don't get me wrong, i'm still not a fan of all that korean BS but damn, they really know how to shoot their dramas. So yes, i'm hooked on it like a Cocaine, but i didn't used to though, just fyi. I'm a hugeeee fan of Park Shin Hye, a korean actress. She's kind of like my latest lezbo celeb crush? Anyways, it's been about a month since pmr, and yes, i've had tons of fun during my post-pmr period, but all that's gonna end soon.

  Mehhh, i'm just really bored right now. I'm supposed to be asleep already, cause it's gonna a full day for me tomorrow but i. just. can't. There are so many other things to do other than sleep. I like the night, it's very inspirational and calming. Okay, so that's about it. I have not touched my guitar in a long while and weird enough, my fingers have not been itching like they should. No complaints whatsoever. Is this me growing weary of it? I sincerely hope not. Btw, i just got back from camp three days ago and i'm leaving for another one the day after tomorrow. Talk about a hectic schedule. Where's my breathing time? Peace.

Still In PMR Process

  It hasn't ended yet, this exam of mine. The week didn't exactly past as fast as i hoped it would. Instead, it pretty much just crawled. Anyways, most of my exam papers are over and done with but i've still got KHB, Maths and Chinese to handle next week. Three subs which i am the least confident with. I know, i know, maths should be easy, like swimming in the kids' pool, but noooooo, not to me. I used to be okay with it, and then the numbers hooked up with them alphabets and before you know it, they got themselves tons of complicated-ass babies of number and letters mixed together. Oh, it's a bitch to do.

  And then there's KHB. It sounds so easy to everyone else, but it's subject that i'm the least fond of. I guess the reason behind my hatred towards it is because i never really paid much attention to it. I just assumed it was hard and never tried to improve my KH skills and knowledge. Well, i saw no point it in it anyways. Hate that sub. I HATE THAT SUB. But of course, if i had to choose between Chinese and that, i'd choose THAT over Chinese. Yeah, all in a heartbeat. It's not that i hate Chinese (hello, Chinese descendant here so can't really hate the thing), but it gets really challenging to learn and all. Yea, i don't like Chinese very much either.

  But oh god, i can't say i'm going bezerk over next week's paper, but i'm not exactly calm either. I totally wasted my weekend doing...everything unrelated to studying. I acted like the whole damn examination was already over. Okay, i hope that i'd get the mood and determination to study tomorrow, in hopes that i don't B any of the subs on Monday. Oh God, i really need the A's, man. A'ight, i'm turning in. Peace. AND STUDY VAL STUDY YOUR ASS OFF TOMORROW BEFORE YOU DO SOMETHING YOU'LL REGRET.

7 Days And Counting

SO, it's finally here, the both long awaited and dreaded examination of the year. It's a week away and here i am, hooked on the internet as usual. Don't get me wrong, i really wish i could actually study like everyone else, but i can't. I'm freaked out, but i don't know what i should do. I can't concentrate, i can't think, i can't really study study, y'know? Anyways, i'm on here to just let out some steam. I feel the pressure and i think i'll melt any second now. I guess i'm typing all this so i'd be able to look back the week after next, when the exam's well in the past, and see how was i feeling and all that. And i'm feeling super stressed out, even though i don't do a lot of studying. Oh, i really hope that i'd be able to do well in the exam, and that i'd actually have the determination to study for it.

Now, to ignore the pressure clawing at my back, i shall talk about what i've been doing for the past..week? Okay, maybe i won't. I'm just trying to find a way to relax here. And ranting do relax me. That's mainly the reason why i'm a chatterbox and can never really shut up for long. SO, We Are The In Crowd. That's currently the band i'm listening to. They're a pop/punk rock band with two vocalists. Taking the lead is an amazing female singer with a voice to die for, Taylor Jardine, and the second vocalist is the lead guitarist, Jordan Eckes. They harmonize really well together and the chemistry, wow! Although i don't think i'm able to compare their songs to Mayday Parade or Daughtry, for that matter, but they're pretty dope. In fact, they actually give out the All Time Low vibe, though more of a female version of the band, but nevertheless great. They're fun to listen to, their lyrics are funny at times and i like how the band is. There it is, another band added to my band list. Now i've got,

1. Simple Plan
2. Mayday Parade
3. All Time Low
4. Daughtry
5. WE ARE THE IN CROWD

A round of applause for WATIC! WHEEEEEE. And that's about it. Peace to whoever reading this, which is probably no one. God, maybe .

Writing Music Again. FAILING

As you can see from the title, yes, i've been trying to tap into that 'poetic' side of me to write some lyrics again. And i failed. Aww, don't worry, i'm so used to failure in that that it's nothing to me anymore. I mean every time i try, i fail, not epic-ally though. I don't understand the term 'epic fail' that seems to be everywhere right now. I get it when people sometimes have an epic failure when they're trying to do something, but people nowadays use 'epic fail' to describe everything. The other day, my friend threw a book at me and told me to catch it, but i didn't because it caught me by surprise and i wasn't ready. And there was this friend of mine who saw everything and said 'EPIC FAIL MAN'. And i was thinking, WHAT THE HELL DID YOU MEAN BY EPIC FAIL? What's so epic about me not being able to catch a book that was thrown my way? Our actions weren't funny, so why the hell is it an epic failure? Argh.

Oh as usual, i go off topic. But anyways, YEAH I STILL CAN'T MAKE MUSIC. OR NICE, POETIC PHRASES. They say we need to be inspired or sometimes we just get it, y'know. Sadly, i don't have whatever that needs to be gotten. Ehhh what am i typing here? I have no idea, really. And just so you know, lyrics-writing is just for fun, hahaha and i shouldn't be thinking of music at this time of the year 'cause my big exam's almost here and i haven't really studied much yet. Got tonnes to cover. And hopefully, i get them all done with some time to spare. Wish me luck, though i'm probably the only one reading this. Okay. Peace

MY BANDSSSS

You'll need to read my previous post to get what i'm actually saying here. SOOO, basically Simple Plan, Mayday Parade, Daughtry and All Time Low are my faborite bands that i love listening to, although sometimes it depends solely on my ever-changing mood. They're all rock bands, so yeah think you get the picture, and all of them taught me at least one thing about life.

Simple Plan taught me that i'm not all that, and that if i try hard enough, i can be what i want to be despite how challenging, excuse the language, bitchy, life can be sometimes and what people might think or say about me.

Mayday Parade taught me how to be stay strong, act a little romantic and sweet to the person i love. And also, to cherish my friends deeply.

Daughtry taught me that the reason i'm able to be the person that i am today is because of the love, support from my family and to never forget about my roots, where i came from, to forever on to those memorable times in the past.

All Time Low taught me how to hang loose, to treat things not-too-seriously so that i don't miss out on the fun in things and to understand that there's always a positive side to everything.

WHEEEE, I LOVE MY REASONS FOR LOVING THESE GREAT BANDS. Peace

My Music Is My Life

Let's talk about music, shall we? Music, is basically the second most important thing in life for me, coming right behind food. It's important to me because it helps me understand things better in life and know what other people may be going through as you know, music is another way of expressing the emotions that are too hard to be shown through mere talking. I wish i could write songs and shit to express how i feel, but NOOO, i wasn't bestowed with the song-writing talent. So what do i do? I listen to other people's music that i may or may not be able to relate to. My fav bands are Simple Plan, Mayday Parade, Daughtry and All Time Low, but mostly it's just SP and MP.

Simple Plan is a Canadian punk-rock band. Although i must say, their latest songs aren't very punky no more, but i still dig them nevertheless. I don't think i really like punk but i fell deeply for their lyrics. I find them very straightforward and easy to relate to because their older albums are mostly about teen angst. Their first few albums touched on how miserable life can be for some teens and that some of us are trying our best to get through it and to show others that we are able to do it. I was able to relate my own life to their songs, and that was basically the main reason why SP has always been my favorite band since i heard one of their songs on the radio, whether i realized it or not. SP's latest album Get Your Heart On! is a more mature and evolved album in my opinion as they started to do more songs about love and all, but wherever they're headed, i'll always believe in them and their music.

Mayday Parade is actually a new band to me. I didn't know about them until recently, unlike SP which i've started listening to ever since my younger days, but wow, Mayday have surprised me. I'm the type who judge things, especially music easily during my first time of listening to a new song. So when i was introduced to Three Cheers For Five Years by Mayday Parade, i wasn't very stoked about the song. I listened to it, didn't quite like it, and so i left it hanging there. A couple of weeks later, i come back and re-listened to the song and i found that it wasn't as bad as i thought i was during the first time. I begun checking out more of MP's music and discovered a new band to fawn over. They're a rock band which revolve their music around the struggles to survive in life, love for friends and of course, lovers. Also, their lyrics are just...AWESOME. They're true, strong, sweet, romantic, sad and can be quite sarcastic when intended. The lead singer, Derek Sanders, have a mesmerizing voice that suits both acoustic and rock sound which i love. Together with the rest of the band, they make great music to my ears.

The American rock band from North-Carolina, Daughtry, gives out a very rock-ish and sometimes country-ish sound in the music that they make. Their lyrics too are powerful and touching. The lead singer, Chris Daughtry, writes lyrics that almost always relates to his love for his family and hometown. It's always something about going home and love in family. Ahhhh, so goddamn meaningful. Most of my friends don't really find Daughtry a good band but whatever, it's my music anyways. I don't find the need to share if people don't appreciate it the way i do, but thank God, my brother doesn't find them as annoying as my friends do. He actually likes them as much as i do and i bet it's because of the super  hard-rock-ish sound that they've got in them. Anyways, Daughtry taught me to never forget about my hometown and family should always comes first. Daughtry's music is where meaningful is.

And then there's All Time Low. Hahaha, i look at them as my happy band because of the funny and sarcastic lyrics that they have. In my opinion, ATL is the only band i've known so far that is able to come out with what i'd like to call 'smart lyrics'. They're sarcastic, funny as hell and they make sense too! SUPER COMBO RIGHT THERE. They're a band that showed me not to take things too seriously and it's cool to have fun with things. I mean, just look at the way their lyrics are. Hahaha, they are 'DA BOMB' and their music amuses me a lot. A LOT. I just love the way their sarcastic lyrics are, but they can be serious when they want to be too. Sometimes, they have songs with lyrics so deep that i need to occasionally consult Google or my friends to help me try to decipher it and most of the time after i get what they're saying, i understand the true meaning of 'touched to the core'. The lyrics are so strong, so deep...GENIUS! A band with a mixture of humor and...depth? LOL they just really know how to make great music.

PEACE