Respecting Day

Today's a school-free day today for students who live in my part of the country. It's also a day where we descendants pay our ancestors' grave to pay our respects. Many people went a few days earlier already, so today is pretty much just a holiday.

Right, to the important issue at hand! The Hunger Games finally premiered a week ago. I know, i know, i'm a little too late to be talking about it, but i don't care. It's not my fault that i have a hog of a brother. Anyways, it premiered on a Friday, but because i had school and it was a weekday, my grandma a 'NO'. And so, i waited till the next day, but on Saturday, i had my school activities. I didn't get home till like five in the evening. Plus, i had some sorta big family dinner thing that night, so THG had to be delayed again. God, it was the longest night of my life. Everyone was at the Cineplex watching it, and here i was at home, sitting at the dining table among my family members, being all enthusiastic and stuff. I was on zombie-mode though. My body was there, but my soul and mind was somewhere close to THG.

And for those who have no idea what The Hunger Games is, kansfkjnjdfnknzskgnknasfnaknfaskfnanfdsjni. Kidding. THG is a film adaption of a book by Suzanne Collins of the same name. It's a sci-fi, action and drama film. It's mainly about the Hunger Games, which is an annual event held where children between the ages of 12 and 18 from 12 different districts are chosen to participate in through something like a lottery called 'The Reaping'. The chosen ones are thrown into an arena controlled by the Capital and are forced to battle it out with one another in order to survive and be crowned as the only survivor and victor of the Hunger Games.

After i finished my dinner, my mom looked to me and said, 'Val, why don't you bring your brother to the cineplex tomorrow and go watch that what, hungry games movie?' FINALLY.

I didn't give her 'hungry games' statement much thought as i was over the moon. I AM WATCHING THE HUNGER GAMES TOMORROW. MUHAHAHA was all i thought about that night. I couldn't sit still, i couldn't watch tv, i couldn't sleep. I was totally hyped up. When Sunday afternoon arrived, my mom dropped me and my bro off at the mall which is where the cineplex is and right after the attendant at the counter handed me the tickets, i couldn't stop staring at that wonderful piece of paper. IT WAS SO BEAUTIFUL. I kept on flipping it in my hand.

And when the moment the movie started playing, LOL i shut away the rest of the world and focused only at the enormous white screen sitting in front of me. We were so lucky as we got the best seats in the house, right at the center of the theater. WOOHOOOOOO. Before the movie premiered, i re-read the book again and again to make sure i remember the details from it.

Hmm, Josh Hutcherson as Peeta? Great. Liam Hemsworth as Gale? Not-so-great. I mean, he wasn't exactly the Gale i had pictured in my mind while reading the book. He's good-looking, yes, but just not my 'Gale'. And of course, Jennifer Lawrence as Katniss. Best freakin' decision ever made. She was perfect for the role. The writer of the book, Suzanne Collins, had in mind for the role of Katniss Everdeen is a girl with a more mature look while still being able to perfectly fit into the profile of a sixteen year old and Jennifer Lawrence was the best candidate for the role! And i think that she looks better as a brunette than a blonde, just saying. Elizabeth Banks as Effie, hahaha that was a rather funny choice, but nevertheless great, though i couldn't really recognize Elizabeth Banks from all that make-up she had on her. Last but not least, Woody Harrelson as Haymitch. Besides the casting of jennifer Lawrence, this was also the perfect selection for the role of Haymitch.

Yawn, i'm beat. Better go take a nap now. Goodnight :)

'And may the odds be ever in your favor' - The Hunger Games

First Ringkas Exam and SOME OTHER ISSUES

Gosh, i did so bad that i don't even wanna talk about it. I am nothing but a weakling. I always fall sick at the most critical times of my life. ALWAYS. During competitions, exams..i'm always there with a pale face and clammy skin. Stupid immune system. White blood cells, Y U NO DO YOUR JOB PROPERLY?! I don't wanna go into details about how i performed in my exam, it's just heartbreaking. Well, it's over now anyways. I still have more to come in the very near future. There's really no time left for me to be a kid anymore, i just hope that i can mature quickly enough before the BIG test comes knocking down my door. I need to work harder, i have to do what i can to do better or else.

No matter what i have to go through with life, never once did i say i hate life. 'Hate' is a very big and powerful word to use and i don't think i'm capable of using it. There are other people in the world who are suffering more than anyone could imagine and they don't hate life. Those who are handicapped, not all of them go around hoping that they'd get hit by a truck or get struck by lighting. In fact, it's the other way around. They actually love and cherish each moment of their life though they have every reason to hate it, but they just don't. And here, i keep hearing people with lives that only the poor and the suffering could only dream of, complain about how bad, suckish, miserable and all those pessimistic words their life is, when the truth is their life is what a lot of people would die for. DON'T THEY UNDERSTAND THAT NOT EVERYONE IS AS LUCKY AS THEY ARE?

Will it kill them to shut up and just cherish what they have? There isn't a thing that they do have and yet, it doesn't seem to be enough for them. Greedy, ungrateful bastards. They tell everyone that 'i hate life. i wish i could die. i wish i was never even born' when there's nothing wrong with the life that they lead. And when others try to tell them that there are others who are in worse situations than they are, they bitch up and scream at people's faces, 'YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT I HAVE TO GO THROUGH. YOU HAVE EVERYTHING SO YOU DON'T HAVE THE RIGHT TO SAY SHIT.'

Well, guess what, hon? I don't have everything. And so do you, but at least you have something. People out there, they don't have anything at all. What they crave for is love, warmth and a normal life, while you have a family that loves you and will always be there for you, and yet what do you say? You hate them. You wish your parents were dead? Why don't you, idiot, take a good look at life from a different angle? Do you think you're more miserable than those who are dying of hunger because they can't afford to buy food while you get it for free because you have people to support you?

Do yourself a favor, slap you face till you wake up and smell the roses, or your blood. You'll see how wrong you were for being so ungrateful and childish. GROW UP. Nothing revolves around you. You can't always get what you want, but you get what you need. And trust me, that's more than enough already. Not everyone is as lucky as you are. You might pretend and lie that you have problems in life that others wouldn't understand in front of people just so you can say you hate life and wanna die, but you can't lie to yourself and to Him. He knows all that you do and you too.

So, stop hating life when there's nothing to hate. You'll end up dead for the wrong reasons and you'll regret it. DEFINITELY REGRET.

SO JUST SHUT UP AND ENJOY LIFE WHILE YOU CAN HOKAY.

Tiring Day

Have i mentioned how much i despise Mondays? I know, i know. Who likes Mondays? Especially Monday mornings. Oh, everyone hates them. Today wasn't exactly the worst Monday i had, but it was really tiring. I go to school at 6.30 in the morning, having to sit through period after period of class and then stay back at school even after our normal school time ended because there was that sports thing-a-ding that the Government came up with. So, everyone had to stay at least an extra one hour at school playing some sport. I myself was in the table tennis category.

I like ping pong. Hahaha. I played a little of it during primary school. It played quite a big role in my childhood and i've always enjoyed the sport. It's not exactly easy as ABC, but it's fun. After playing some ping pong, i left school in my grandma's car and went to my ex-primary school to pick up my brother who was also having his own activities at school.

And then i finally reach home dog-beat. I was so tired and i still have tuition tonight! There was no escaping for tuition, sadly. I hope i don't fall in and out of sleep tonight at tuition or else nothing would go inside my head, but i'm so sleepy! If i could sleep now, i would, but i don't really sleep in the afternoon. Wait, it's nor because i don't want to, but i can't. YAWN. Ooh, so tired. Why do i have tuition tonight? WHAIII?!

Chinese New Year : The Dragon Year

Today's the second day of Chinese New Year, which is the Water Dragon year this year. I have no idea about the water dragon, but what i do know is that it's that time of the year again for kids to go around town visiting family and friends while receiving a little red packet known as 'ang pow' among the Chinese. I didn't really go out much this year as most of my relatives aren't here and those who are, they're either gone or beyond contacting. So, i guess i'm spending my Chinese New Year at home with my family.

When people come for a visit at my house, i welcome them with open arms. Why? Because they've got what every kid wants during this time of the year, RED PACKETS! But whatever the amount is in the red packets, it's the thought that counts. Wish i had more to talk about CNY, but unfortunately there's nothing much to say. There ain't much activities happening for me this year. Plus, CNY feels weird this year. My mom said that it was because i was being a Negative Nancy again and that my pessimistic nature is making me think that CNY would be boring this year.

IDK. It just feels kinda off, y'know? Um, well, yeap. That's it then for today's update on my very boring life. Who the hell even reads this anyways? LOL

Decisions, decisions

I was suppose to submit this in on Saturday but I got carried away with sleep. So, decisions. I've got a big one in my hands right now. Have you ever needed to choose between doing something you love and something you have to do no matter what? I'd like to call it decision of one's 'heart and duty'.

If yes, then it must've sucked or you. It's no doubt that I'm in that current situation. As most of you know, I'm having the 'big test' year. PMR. I should be studying my ass off and ignoring other things that have nothing to do with studies or might jeopardize it. Choosing studies is the right option.

What if I can't?

I'm an active member of my school's uniform body. Well actually, I'm now one of the cadet committees. Sec 3 students aren't supposed to though, cuz it's an important year to focus only on our studies, but because of a reason that I'm really lazy to tell, we have to. Tough luck.

My family have been pressuring me about my studies again. They repeat themselves over and over again 'how important this year is and I better focus on my studies and nothing else!' In other words, they just want me to choose, to make a decision. Don't they know I'm a major dilemma freak?! I'm terrible in decisions and now they're throwing this huge one right at me! How am I gonna settle for a decision? As they say, 'the big decisions in life are never easy'. Boy, are they ever so precise!

After debating and thinking it over for a long period of time, I came to the best answer that I could find, BALANCE. I promised myself to try and balance out everything, between my studies and uniform body. Of course studies are the more essential one here, but how can one let go of something one's so passionate about? Do we have to sacrifice in order to succeed?

Sadly, yes. But I'm not going to though. I would sacrifice my free time on studying and attempting on improving my grades, but if you're telling me to quit doing something that's keeping me a part of something I love, forget it. If I can balance it out, y'know do both at once and still succeed, I will not hesitate to try.

But if it turns out that I can't, I'll know when to pull the plug. Studies come first, no matter how much pain in the ass it is. Truth is, I'm not sure if I'm capable on balancing. I have super poor time management and whatever that has anything to do with managing.

I'll try though. Like till I die or something. I couldn't care less if my friends or even my own family doubt me, as long as my faith in me hasn't been shaken up, I'll keep trying, reaching beyond my own limits. I just hope that my family's gonna support me or try to understand at least. I have no intention on looking back to this year in the future and regretting I lived the year of 2012. No, I wouldn't want that. I hate taking things for granted, I hate having to say 'I shouldn't have done that', I hate having to wish that I should've done things differently.

And I do not want to get stuck in the past. So God, I pray for your guidance and forgiveness. Let this year be a little less rougher than it should be.

P.S a tragedy has stricken in my hometown. Some parts of my town have been hit by a flash flood due to the continual of raining and on the 6th of January, I think, two lives were lost. The lives of a 19 year old female student and a hardworking, male employee of a gas station were taken during the flood. The kind hearted, yet ill-fated employee who passed on attempting to save another life, the life of the poor girl who accidentally slipped and fell into into a drain which was filled with water. The strong current swept them away, killing both of them. Please join me and say a silent prayer to these poor souls. May they rest in peace.

Got My Phone Back!

Yes, i got my phone back! After so many weeks without the company of my dear phone, i've finally managed to revive it once again though it is now somewhat handicapped. On the night of 8th December 2011, i changed my phone's passcode out of anger. It was the night before i went away for a four-day camp.

When i returned four days later, which was on the 11th, i was shocked when i realized that i've forgotten my passcode. I mentally tortured myself as i could not gain access my phone without typing in the four-digit passcode. For days i tried to recollect the passcode number, but to no avail. I had this paper which was filled with God-knows-how-many four digit passcodes, but non of them worked. So, i tried manually removing the passcode using a program which can read my phone like a pen-drive, but failed. It was then i realized that i had to bring it into the phone shop to fix it, but that could only lead to one thing that i've been trying to avoid all along...LOSING ALL MY APPS.

You see, my phone's full with jailbroken apps, and if i restore it, not only will i be updating it to the latest version, but also will be losing all the jailbroken apps that i once had. Despite how much i didn't want to lose all the apps, i had to restore my phone as it was the only way that i would be able to remove the passcode lock.

And when i did, i was so freakin' happy! I could finally text people with my own number and not get anymore missed calls or messages. I was on cloud nine since the moment i unlocked my phone. I was sooooooooo happy to have my phone back.

Well, i've learnt my lesson. I will not change my passcode often, i will no be selfish with my phone as the whole reason why i had changed the passcode was to avoid my nasty brother from using it, and i will not.... I forgot what i was going to type. I just hope that i'll be able to get most of my apps back.

Okay, peace out.

New Year!

Happy New Year, babes! Yesterday was the last day of 2011 and today is the first day of 2012. Is it the end of the world? I sincerely hope not. Many say that this would be the last year Earth will act as home for us, the Homo Sapiens or what dumb people like me would call as 'humans'. Are what they're saying true?

IDK. Even if it is, so be it. I mean, if God thinks that the time has arrived for Him to cleanse the world and rid it of evil or whatever, then let him. As long as it's an act of Mother Nature, i would not disapprove, but if it turns out to be some stupid accident that was caused by stupid humans, I WOULD DISAPPROVE WHOLE HEARTEDLY, no doubt. What do i mean by that? Alright, i shall explain more thoroughly then.

If a massive asteroid hit Earth and destroy all living creatures in it, THAT is what we call an act of Mother Nature, y'know as in like it happened because of natural causes, not because of men. And if we all get killed by some virus created because of some failed bio-weapon project, then that is certainly not the work of Mother Nature, get it?

DON'T TELL ME THAT WOULDN'T HAPPEN. You don't know that. NO ONE DOES. I'm open up to any possibilities that lies in this world. Whether it does or does not happen, i just pray that God will forgive us. Human created the world that we live in now, and they can also easily destroy it.

Wow. I don't know why i just said that. Well, i am a very chaotic person and i've always been a negative Nancy. Anyways, it's New Year Day! Everyone should be having the time of their lives, and then we should all have a little time to recollect what has happened in the past year of 2011. The mistakes that we've made, the sins that we've committed and the paths that we took. Think back to all those happy and sad moments. Relive them again before you step into another day in the life of a new year. Hope that we won't make the same mistakes that we did, and try to make the most out of the days in the future.

Happy New Year.