Chinese New Year : The Dragon Year

Today's the second day of Chinese New Year, which is the Water Dragon year this year. I have no idea about the water dragon, but what i do know is that it's that time of the year again for kids to go around town visiting family and friends while receiving a little red packet known as 'ang pow' among the Chinese. I didn't really go out much this year as most of my relatives aren't here and those who are, they're either gone or beyond contacting. So, i guess i'm spending my Chinese New Year at home with my family.

When people come for a visit at my house, i welcome them with open arms. Why? Because they've got what every kid wants during this time of the year, RED PACKETS! But whatever the amount is in the red packets, it's the thought that counts. Wish i had more to talk about CNY, but unfortunately there's nothing much to say. There ain't much activities happening for me this year. Plus, CNY feels weird this year. My mom said that it was because i was being a Negative Nancy again and that my pessimistic nature is making me think that CNY would be boring this year.

IDK. It just feels kinda off, y'know? Um, well, yeap. That's it then for today's update on my very boring life. Who the hell even reads this anyways? LOL

Decisions, decisions

I was suppose to submit this in on Saturday but I got carried away with sleep. So, decisions. I've got a big one in my hands right now. Have you ever needed to choose between doing something you love and something you have to do no matter what? I'd like to call it decision of one's 'heart and duty'.

If yes, then it must've sucked or you. It's no doubt that I'm in that current situation. As most of you know, I'm having the 'big test' year. PMR. I should be studying my ass off and ignoring other things that have nothing to do with studies or might jeopardize it. Choosing studies is the right option.

What if I can't?

I'm an active member of my school's uniform body. Well actually, I'm now one of the cadet committees. Sec 3 students aren't supposed to though, cuz it's an important year to focus only on our studies, but because of a reason that I'm really lazy to tell, we have to. Tough luck.

My family have been pressuring me about my studies again. They repeat themselves over and over again 'how important this year is and I better focus on my studies and nothing else!' In other words, they just want me to choose, to make a decision. Don't they know I'm a major dilemma freak?! I'm terrible in decisions and now they're throwing this huge one right at me! How am I gonna settle for a decision? As they say, 'the big decisions in life are never easy'. Boy, are they ever so precise!

After debating and thinking it over for a long period of time, I came to the best answer that I could find, BALANCE. I promised myself to try and balance out everything, between my studies and uniform body. Of course studies are the more essential one here, but how can one let go of something one's so passionate about? Do we have to sacrifice in order to succeed?

Sadly, yes. But I'm not going to though. I would sacrifice my free time on studying and attempting on improving my grades, but if you're telling me to quit doing something that's keeping me a part of something I love, forget it. If I can balance it out, y'know do both at once and still succeed, I will not hesitate to try.

But if it turns out that I can't, I'll know when to pull the plug. Studies come first, no matter how much pain in the ass it is. Truth is, I'm not sure if I'm capable on balancing. I have super poor time management and whatever that has anything to do with managing.

I'll try though. Like till I die or something. I couldn't care less if my friends or even my own family doubt me, as long as my faith in me hasn't been shaken up, I'll keep trying, reaching beyond my own limits. I just hope that my family's gonna support me or try to understand at least. I have no intention on looking back to this year in the future and regretting I lived the year of 2012. No, I wouldn't want that. I hate taking things for granted, I hate having to say 'I shouldn't have done that', I hate having to wish that I should've done things differently.

And I do not want to get stuck in the past. So God, I pray for your guidance and forgiveness. Let this year be a little less rougher than it should be.

P.S a tragedy has stricken in my hometown. Some parts of my town have been hit by a flash flood due to the continual of raining and on the 6th of January, I think, two lives were lost. The lives of a 19 year old female student and a hardworking, male employee of a gas station were taken during the flood. The kind hearted, yet ill-fated employee who passed on attempting to save another life, the life of the poor girl who accidentally slipped and fell into into a drain which was filled with water. The strong current swept them away, killing both of them. Please join me and say a silent prayer to these poor souls. May they rest in peace.

Got My Phone Back!

Yes, i got my phone back! After so many weeks without the company of my dear phone, i've finally managed to revive it once again though it is now somewhat handicapped. On the night of 8th December 2011, i changed my phone's passcode out of anger. It was the night before i went away for a four-day camp.

When i returned four days later, which was on the 11th, i was shocked when i realized that i've forgotten my passcode. I mentally tortured myself as i could not gain access my phone without typing in the four-digit passcode. For days i tried to recollect the passcode number, but to no avail. I had this paper which was filled with God-knows-how-many four digit passcodes, but non of them worked. So, i tried manually removing the passcode using a program which can read my phone like a pen-drive, but failed. It was then i realized that i had to bring it into the phone shop to fix it, but that could only lead to one thing that i've been trying to avoid all along...LOSING ALL MY APPS.

You see, my phone's full with jailbroken apps, and if i restore it, not only will i be updating it to the latest version, but also will be losing all the jailbroken apps that i once had. Despite how much i didn't want to lose all the apps, i had to restore my phone as it was the only way that i would be able to remove the passcode lock.

And when i did, i was so freakin' happy! I could finally text people with my own number and not get anymore missed calls or messages. I was on cloud nine since the moment i unlocked my phone. I was sooooooooo happy to have my phone back.

Well, i've learnt my lesson. I will not change my passcode often, i will no be selfish with my phone as the whole reason why i had changed the passcode was to avoid my nasty brother from using it, and i will not.... I forgot what i was going to type. I just hope that i'll be able to get most of my apps back.

Okay, peace out.

New Year!

Happy New Year, babes! Yesterday was the last day of 2011 and today is the first day of 2012. Is it the end of the world? I sincerely hope not. Many say that this would be the last year Earth will act as home for us, the Homo Sapiens or what dumb people like me would call as 'humans'. Are what they're saying true?

IDK. Even if it is, so be it. I mean, if God thinks that the time has arrived for Him to cleanse the world and rid it of evil or whatever, then let him. As long as it's an act of Mother Nature, i would not disapprove, but if it turns out to be some stupid accident that was caused by stupid humans, I WOULD DISAPPROVE WHOLE HEARTEDLY, no doubt. What do i mean by that? Alright, i shall explain more thoroughly then.

If a massive asteroid hit Earth and destroy all living creatures in it, THAT is what we call an act of Mother Nature, y'know as in like it happened because of natural causes, not because of men. And if we all get killed by some virus created because of some failed bio-weapon project, then that is certainly not the work of Mother Nature, get it?

DON'T TELL ME THAT WOULDN'T HAPPEN. You don't know that. NO ONE DOES. I'm open up to any possibilities that lies in this world. Whether it does or does not happen, i just pray that God will forgive us. Human created the world that we live in now, and they can also easily destroy it.

Wow. I don't know why i just said that. Well, i am a very chaotic person and i've always been a negative Nancy. Anyways, it's New Year Day! Everyone should be having the time of their lives, and then we should all have a little time to recollect what has happened in the past year of 2011. The mistakes that we've made, the sins that we've committed and the paths that we took. Think back to all those happy and sad moments. Relive them again before you step into another day in the life of a new year. Hope that we won't make the same mistakes that we did, and try to make the most out of the days in the future.

Happy New Year.