Prayer Heard!

I've been praying really hard lately, and there are tonnes of reason why. First, my grades. Second, personal needs. Not exactly a lot, but well, i don't think that my prayers deserved to be heard, but now that it has been, i'm sooooo grateful!

If you've been keeping tabs on my absolutely boring blog, you'd know that i'm not what you'd call a, responsible, mature, hardworking and smart person. I'm more to the opposite of all that. The grades for my last term are rubbish. And since then, i've been trying really hard to get back on track. I pray a lot, and read a lot, though most of the time i get distracted and well, y'know lah. So, when i got the results for my end of the year exam, i was not disappointed at all. I improved. I got better results and i felt good. I knew that it was God who was looking after me, guiding me through my test. I thanked him, and of course continued praying for something else that i've been wanting since FOREVER.

I prayed for years that God would grant me a guitar. And well, I WAITED. WAITED FOR A LONG TIME. I prayed everyday and asked for this wish of mine to come true. And y'know what, after my exam, my grandma said that she'd get me a guitar! I was over the moon and was on cloud nine for a loooong time. And then, the moment came. Two days ago, which was a Sunday, my grandma bought me to Lepo Music Store and got me an acoustic guitar! Even though i have not the slightest idea on how to play it, but i can learn :D

And so, i got a sleek black one. StarSun's the brand. It was a beginner's guitar. It originally was a reddish-brown one, but then i asked for a switch to black one. I wanted a blue one, but there was only so many things a person can ask for. I came back home with a huge smile on my face, and the guitar in it's gig bag, strapped to my back. I was given two picks for free, one black colored and the other, rainbow-ish. I'm using the black one more often as it's sharper and i dunno, more comfy? I'm just happy that i got my guitar. I'm a lucky kid, and i know that :)

Thanks, God, for everything.

May you continue guiding me through life.

Exam's OVER

Hey, hey, hey :D exam has been over about a week ago and we still gotta go to school, which is absolutely pointless. What do we do at school? Anything BUT study. More than half of my class brought cards to play and the rest of it, well, they're either playing hand games or reading. I myself have been playing cards too at school. Hahaha

Anyways, i ditched school today because it would be a total bore. And then, i've been doing some thinking. I haven't exactly been doing my very best in my studies this year. So, i promised myself that next year, i'll toughen up and improve. My grandma has been pressuring me about the future, again. She asked me what field would i like to study when i graduate, and i was thinking 'i'm not even sure i would graduate'. Truth be told, i wanna study psychology. I love learning about how people, human's mind work, like what makes them do what they do. Those kinda things interest me lots. I guess this field is a bit related to criminology, and i love crime. Hahaha. And i won't mind studying about them.

But the problem is that these are not normal field. And they're not exactly an ideal field of study. I mean, what are the occupations that one who studies psychology can have? A psychologist, or a therapist? Those are the only ones. Also, a lecturer of psychology studies if you prefer. But, that's all. Because it's so limited, i don't think it's ideal for me to get into them. but i don't really want to study about law, business or biology, science or whatever. THEY BORE ME.

Aww man, what the hell am i supposed to do? I know i still have like tonnes of time, but i don't know. I guess i'm just worried. The future can't be planned. Argh, how much i hate surprises

Parents and Teachers Don't Meant To Co-exist

My school had a parent-teacher thing yesterday and mine was...not as disastrous as i had expected. See, every year after the first semester exam passed, parents have to come over to the school in order to retrieve report cards. And that also give teachers the chance to blab whatever they want to our parents. What they blab about, not all are true, and not all parents are smart enough to see through the act.

As usual, my grandma was the one who went instead of my very-very busy parents. Don't worry, i don't mind :D So, knowing my grandma, she dressed up for the 'big' day. I mean like really, really dressed up. It was as though she was dressing up for a wedding dinner or something high-class like. She had even put on her gigantic ear-rings. I asked why she'd wore what she was wearing and she answered, 'Would you prefer if i went in that half-quarter pants and black-faded-to-white tee and looking like an old hag who had just woken up from a nightmare?'

Yes, my grandma is just that awesome.

And, when i supported my grandma as we walk down the flight of stairs that leads us down to the school hall, she whispered to me, 'Haiya, I can walk by myself. I'm not that old so quit making me look that old.'

Grandma awesome strikes again!

So, when we reached my class, there were only one other people in line. We sat on the chairs that my class had wasted our energy and breath on to arrange it nicely for this day. We went up when it was our turn. My class teacher who is a Malay, was starting everything by telling grandma by position in class, which was not a good thing, because i got like 21 this time, over 40 smart-asses in my smart-ass class which my school had obviously accidentally put me in. Then, she started to talk about the subjects that had dropped, which was Chinese and History, both which i badly in. I dropped from an A to C in History. And for Chinese.... I DON'T EVEN WANNA START WITH CHINESE, NOT EVER. SO, after dragging on and on and on about God-knows-what for God-knows-how-long, my grandma finally made a move and stood up. And that was when i finally woke up from my 'sleep'.

As expected, grandma lectured me all the way to the hair salon about my grades. She got a couple of calls in between, but that didn't stop her from changing the subject. I had even tried turning on my rock music. She still didn't budge. Oh wells, at least i got my haircut in peace.

After that, blablablalblablablablablabla. Nothing else to say, so PEACE

Ain't Life Grand?

These few days have been a huge bore. School is well, school. Only less fun, more work. So, i ask, ain't life grand? I've got simply nothin' to do. Not one thing. And facing the wrath of boredom is really a terrible thing to do. It's killing me, literally.

I'm soooooo bored that i'm googling random stuffs and listening to whatver song that appears on the screen of my lappie. Tell me i'm amused and well-entertained. Since boredom has taken over most of my week's schedule, i've been trying to make up some new lyrics. Believe me, that is not an easy skill to master. I have no idea how people like Chris Daughtry or the band Simple Plan can come up with really, really amazing lyrics. I tried, FAILED.

Anyways, i just have to think of something else to write about then, other than...love songs? HAHA. Not funny...

Indie Horror Film

Hey. So, after watching the movie 'Insidious', it kinda inspired me to proceed into the making of my long-lost desire, which is creating an indie horror film. I've written a lot rubbish horror stories over the years and though they all of different storyline, something amongst them remain the same. They're all unfinished work.

There is a great starting but no ending. In all the stories i wrote, not one has an ending, not even one. How sad is that? Anyways, even now that i'm in middle school doesn't make it any easier to have determination to finish any of them. But, this time about the indie film thing, i'm more determined than i am, though i got really frustrated about it sometimes. Writers' block. It happens.

So, I've already gotten my hands on a the cast, the storyline and video cam. All that's left is the right place. I originally wanted a place big enough for the whole cast to fit in, but it was just not quite possible. What was the solution?

I'm thinking of using my own place. It's not that big, but where else can we film it? Okay. So this is the filming style that we're gonna use. Ever watched 'Quarantine'? Yes, we're gonna shoot it in the 'found footage' style. And, i'm gonna be the one who's holding on the camera, making me part of the characters too. LOL. Well, if you intend on shooting a film that would please yourself, why not shoot it yourself?

As for the plot, since we're all pre-teens, might as well put the picture on pre-teens. And you'd think to yourself, how would any horrific thing happen to a group of kids? THINGS HAPPEN. SO, i thought up the storyline like this : What would bring a group of kids together without the presence of their parents? GROUP PROJECT. And so, i started on the story. A KHB project in school led three classmates in search for a spot in town that they can use to promote it, like how promoters promote their new-built house. Meanwhile, one of their classmate who recently moved from China to here due to family problems, joined the group of three for the project, telling them that he has just the place that would promise an A for the project.

The characters are :

Royce Lim (M) IRVING 15 years – KHB project group memeber

Pamela Lim (F) JOAN 13 years – Sister of Royce

Liu Yen De (M) KENDRICK 15 years - Moved here from China /KHB project member

Tami Yong (F) KELLY 15 years – KHB project group member

Selene Chong (F) Valerie 15 years – KHB project group member (me)

Jane Yap (F) LYDIA 20 years – Royce and Pam’s older cousin

Lina (G) ZOE Long-haired ghost

Wendy (G) CHELSEA Skinny ghost

Kid (G) RACHEL Kid ghost who runs around laughing

Hands (G) MICHELLE Ghost that shows fingers

To ace this project, they'd have to take pictures, videos as documentaries on the spot they've decided on. Yen De, who's the guy who supplied them with the spot, used his late third aunt's house, which was a house out of the town's view. Even though the house is no longer occupied by anyone, a caretaker is hired to keep the place in order.

The horror begun when Yen De suggested that they sleep-over at the house so that they would finish the project earlier. And that is when Jane, older cousin to Royce an Pamela comes in as the only adult amongst the group members. Her job is just to act as their baby-sitter and because Royce's younger sister, Pam was tagging along too. The horror begun when they had their first night there and danger had strike when the only adult was lured out of the house, leaving the rest of the group alone. Before they knew it, they found themselves horrifically trapped inside the house with unexplainable things happening around them. One by one, people start vanishing, unknown shadows lurking around every corner they turn to. Only one night in the house had felt like a year in a small cage playing cat and mouse with something beyond reality. And the proof of everything that happened was caught in the video cam, revealing EVERYTHING.

The hidden secret behind the house:

Yen De’s third aunt who was also previously from China migrated here with her husband to look for a better life. Her husband was cheating on her therefore, she killed her husband’s affair partner in the forest outside her house and then hanged herself out of depression and frustration. Husband came home sometime later, finding his wife hanging by a rope in their living room’s ceiling fan. After pulling her down, he checked for her pulse and there was none. He gathered himself up and covered her with a blanket before calling the police. Halfway during his call, he heard something from the living room and told the officer to hold the call for a moment so that he could check what made the noise, but there was nothing. Just when he was about to get back to the phone, he saw that there was no body under the blanket that he had put on his wife a few minutes ago. He caught something moving fast and tried to reach for the phone, but before he could do that, he had already lost his life.

His heart was ripped out. No one knew except for the caretaker as he was there when everything happened. And there were a whole lot of things that he didn’t mention too. E.g. before Yen De’s aunt and her husband moved in, there were already 3 occupants before them. And 3 of them still hasn't left the place yet.

So, basically that's what i thought of. I'm now working on the script, and believe me, it's hard work! So, i hope that everything will succeed and happen as i've planned. PEACE

Email Add CHANGED

Yes. I've finally changed my email add after a year of not being able to access my old account. It's now freakoval@hotmail.com. So, what happened today? Well, i went for the second time to the SJAKHS First Aid Course. I didn't have to go, but knowing me, i can't pass up the chance to go. Sad to say, St john activities practically took my holiday away. Almost everyday was filled with st john. GREAT. JOY.

Don't get me wrong. I LOVE ST JOHN A. Just that, it takes a lot of time that i want to myself. Haha. I need my personal place too y'know. SO, i'm going away to Fun Day Camp on the fifth of next month. I missed the chance to go last year, all because i wanted to watch Ghost Whisperer.

Tired. Peace

First Semester Exam

Aiyaiyai. Exam, again! This time, it's not just an exam. It's THE exam. They're four exams in total throughout the year in school, and two out of them are THE exam where if you don't get good grades, all you're getting after that is rice with yam, nothing more. To me, that is the worst meal that i could think of. This is the um, fourth day of the exam. And did i mention that today is a SATURDAY?! And yet, we fellow Highians still have to go to school to attend the exam that everyone was dreading.

Today, i had art and history test. The art theory has 20 questions and i only knew how to do number 0. yes, i 'eenie meeniee minee mo-ed' for all 20 of 'em. As for history, 60 questions and mostly was like 'I didn't learn this!!!'. LOL. It's easy when you actually did learn, and put your heart and soul in it. Unlike me, i just studies yesterday night and for only an hour. I scrolled through the rest of it this morning for an hour too. Yes, i know. LAST MINUTE. It's a risk, but it's me.

So, this week was mostly paper two's. Next week shall be objective questions. The pressure is on, again. If this exam does not turn out well, good-bye to all things that make me happy. My mom and her rules.

Sigh. Stupidity, please lead me to where God would