Casual Apologies

You know, it really fucking hurts when the someone you wrote a song for doesn't seem very fazed with the fact that there is a song not only dedicated to them, but a song written in their name, written solely for them. I guess i wish my efforts were shown more appreciation than given. God, i feel and probably sound like a five year old trying to get mommy's acknowledgement and cherry compliments. Anyway, i wrote this song in like, a night but it didn't come out that bad so i'm glad. Maybe because i was really motivated by my apologetic nature concerning the people i love and wanted to redeem myself but i doubt that this piece i wrote played a hand in any process of redemption. Oh, bloody daggers in my heart.  I was really sorry when i wrote this. Very sorry, very afraid and so very in love.

My pulse is racing at a foreign speed
As you link your arm with mine
The way your lips press against my cheeks
I'm hoping my heart will survive the night

When tomorrow comes, I'll make a new wish
It won't be music CDs this time 
Cause now I know that I am certain
You are all I'll ever need in life 

But let me first apologize in advance
For the things I might do
And for the things I have done

I'm sorry for the words I speak
I know they always hurt
I can't ever take back the silly things
But you can take all of me
You can take everything

My eyes are open but I only see darkness
Will you come and save me, my dear?
Bring along a shotgun and an army of candles
Your love will shatter my darkest fears

But the one thing that has scared me the most
Is the thought of an open door
And I ask you sweetheart, will you please come back
But your head is shaking, your eyes on the floor

So let me first apologize in advance
For the things I might do
And for the things I have done
Cause I'll never live through a day without you here

I'm sorry for the words I speak
I know they always hurt
I can't ever take back the silly things
But you can take all of me
You can take everything

And you do, you have everything
That I could give
That I could be
I hope there's a pretty little smile
On that very pretty face tonight
I still I gotta say 

I'm sorry for the words I speak
I know they always hurt
I can't ever take back the silly things
Well, you've taken all of me
You've taken everything
You're in my every heartbeat
You're in my every daydream