1/1/11 The Special Year

This year is what i consider as once in a lifetime thing. I mean how often to ya get 1111 in a date? Maybe in... another hundred years, but who could live that long these days? It's almost impossible for anybody in this era to reach the age of 90, let along 100. Anyway, it's already the fifth day of this new year. It seems pretty awesome this year. We meet new people, do new stuffs. Ain't that interesting?

Well, as the years passed, it slowly brings me closer to what i fear most in life, other than, snake and insects....the future. I know that this year is supposed to be the so called 'special' year like everyone said, but all i can think of this year are studies, studies, studies and more studies. And let's not left out the future, future, future and even more future. Why do i think of that and not some other pre-teen stuff? The question mark still lies in my mind.

Okay, enough about that. Let's talk about this year. What am i gonna do this year? Study, i guess. What else is there for me to do anyway? Studying is as boring as watching a plumber fix the toilet. You know what? I think that this year's just gonna be like every other boring been-there-done-that year. I don't have that special feeling in the gut about it like everyone does. So, from my point of view, this year's basically gonna be a huge blank again. A year that would not leave a strong trace in my memories.

Sometimes, i wonder why the hell am i such a negative person. How come everything about me is such a blur? Will i ever find my goal in life?

I'm hoping that this year will be a change...for once.